One thing for sure, my patience is running out. Girls, lies, rebuts, selfish. Forgive me if one day, i burst out. Screaming at your face or even give you a slap. There is freaking alot of things going through my mind right now. Yes i wanna voice out. But sorry, i dont have the courage to. You expect me to trust you? I did. You expect me to change my attitude? I did. You expect me to treat you better? I did. But the question is, what did i get from all those things that I DID? Chance, forgiveness. How long? Till when? Im sorry because im not pretty enough. Im sorry because my clothing/style sucks. Im sorry i couldnt live up to your expectations. All i can say is, im trying my best. So now, what more? where, what, which part of me you want me to change? I've got feelings too boyfriend. Do i deserve this? Am i worth this crap? Its killing me inside.
Skip it, anyone wanna go for a late night jog? Maybe the cool breeze will help calm me down. Anyway, 2009 is sucha bore for me. Study, mock exams, intensive learning, common test, class test, quiz. Nabehcibaianti-moe! Lol. June holiday also doesnt seems like an holiday for me. Cus why? 1st and 4th week i'll be having classes. Grr! Curse you teachers! But im up for it. Im having a class bbq. Already had plans with friends. Yay! Its time for me to catch up with them. And then again, mia. sorry hor! I'll be back after this fcuking O's is done.
Furthermore, my hair is growing! Another yay for me! I made a promise to niimsey and myself that i wont cut my hair length till im 18. Lol! Let's see! And im planning to do braids after O's and ameerul planning on doing dreadlocks. Ohhhh-gaaaaaaaay! HAHAHHAH! see how uh ehn. lol! Forget it.
Upcoming plans:
- Going shopping with sukini bby
- Watching dance competition
- Class bbq on 8th June at East coast park
- 1st & 4th week of June having lessons
- Date with Shafiqah bby
- Day out with Miraboo and Eefah bby
- Date with Wyza bby
- Trimming fringe only
- Doing 100 skips a day till end of year (LOL)
- Working after O's (?)
