be that you can be

hi blog, im at my wits end today. its only been two days after released of my results and my world seems to be crumbling down. everything that can go wrg, went wrg. i deserve this, i realise that. but not to this extend. its a huge  blow to me  and no one seems to be there for me. yes maybe a few, but i wish there were more. im nt trying to be greedy, but i think a lil bit more will help by healing this wound. im tired of crying till i fell asleep. its repeating. my family have been giving me cold shoulder and no one is really talking to me. all i can  do at home is sleep  when they re awake and woke up when they sleep. i dont feel like talking to anyone cus to top it all, im back to being single. idk what hurt the most, knowing that things already end or knowing the real reason why the other party couldnt care less abt the rship? i feel v lonely now and i really hope that someone could call me up and ask if i need a hug. im v sick now and its a gd thing im sick cus all i could do is sleep. im gg to the doc alone tmrw cus it have been almost a week im down with this. i cant help myself but cry while typing this. so nw, where's everyone when i need them? i feel hopeless. useless. goodmorning to me.